A little bit about my Swifty beginnings.

Hey guys! I have been working on a “Taylor Swift” Blog series for a while now. Realistically like 12 years but seriously in the last couple months. Any of you who know me on a personal level know me at one point or another as “The girl who loves Taylor Swift”. It’s true, it’s been true love since I first heard “Time McGraw” play on the country music station my sophomore year of high school while I was getting ready. My first thought was “wow she’s so smart for using his name as the title of her first single”. LITTLE DID I KNOW this girl would be narrating my life for many years to come beyond high school and college.

The blog series (right now) is mostly me describing how each song has played into my life. There were years of my life where it seemed that Taylor was following me around and writing about my life. My family, friends and boyfriend all pointed it out independently as well, it was magical. Rather than one monstrous post with all of the songs, I decided to break up these posts individually and give each song its due diligence. I will warn you, Taylor Swift’s music is rooted deep into my soul. I have spent my worst, lowest moments of my life and my happiest highest moments of my life listening to her music. You might find out things you didn’t know about me, you might find out things that will make you wanna cry, make you mad at me and you might even find out something about yourself in relation to me and the song in subject. Just like Taylor I will reserve the use of any real names. Although I am pretty certain the people who are subjects of the posts will know.

So before I begin those song posts I wanted to talk a little bit about my life as a Swifty. In the beginning (TS & Fearless eras) NO ONE ELSE liked her. NO ONE liked country. No one else cared there was a girl with long curly hair who sang about love and fairytales. WELP THAT WAS RIGHT UP MY ALLEY. I was all about that life. Especially since when Taylor’s “Tim McGraw” single came to me I was in a very bad place (like literally physically and emotionally). I listened to that song through moves across state lines because of custody battles with my family, through making new friends, new memories, crying myself to sleep because of my choices….oh wait, I should probably save this for the post about that song! ;)

I have been to the Fearless, Speak Now, and RED tours. I plan on attending the Reputation tour in July! I didn’t get to see her open for Brad Paisley during the TS era but one of my friends did and sent me pics and videos! I missed the 1989 tour because I was headed down south to greet my brother when he got back home from deployment in the middle east. Every time I saw her and she came on stage I cried, it was so overwhelming!

Now don’t get me wrong, I think people being obsessive about celebrities can get a little out of hand. I would have definitely called myself “obsessed” back in the TS - RED eras. I bought every greeting card of hers I came across, every album, every magazine with her on it, watched every TV special, joined her website, talked about her to anyone and everyone who would listen and obviously listened to exclusively only her music. THEN 1989 hit. The fandom BLEW UP, EVERYONE loves her now. It doesn’t feel as special anymore :( People are fighting over who “loves her more” people are coming up with ways to try to meet her. I have no idea when Taylor Nation started but I’m surprised I wasn’t the one running it? This was all very discouraging for me so I started to drop back on my Taylor swift posts on facebook, I deleted my Taylor swift tumblrs, I didn’t obsess and talk to people about it non stop anymore. It was a “thing” now. I do not do “things”, especially when it's something that has meant so much to me for so long. This is a hard emotion to deal with obviously because the more people that love her the more successful she gets, but the less connection I feel to it all. THEN SHE STARTS TO CREEP FOR PEOPLE ONLINE WHO HAVE BEEN LOVING HER FOREVER. GUYS I DELETED ALL EVIDENCE OF THIS RIGHT BEFORE SHE WOULD HAVE FOUND ALL MY DECADE OF WORK LOL. My luck. Just my luck. But people loving her wasn’t the only thing that came with her increased success. People hating on her increased too. When someone bashes Taylor Swift it feels personal because I feel like she has influenced so much of who I am. I wouldn’t be who I am today without her personality, business, musical and fashion influences. It got to the point where I got in a very public fight with a radio DJ once about her. When people would ask me why I love her so much I would always say because she is classy, she sings about love and things that matter to me, she loves sparkles and dresses! There have been some things she’s said in interviews that have stuck with me forever, that really drilled my love for her in. One was once she said that she doesn’t read what people say about her on the internet anymore because its too much and too often and a lot of the time its wrong. Well obviously, she didn’t stick to this rule. I wonder how long she lasted not looking. I agreed to this notion and also stopped reading articles about her I knew would be negative. Then another interview she said that she knows she has a big influence on many people in the world and it would be irresponsible of her to pretend like it wasn’t true (like so many other celebrities have). Another interview I saw her describing how she plans out every single outfit far in advanced and always has an outfit planned if theres going to be paparazzi (that is a life perk I would love — buy whatever outfits you want and have them planned out months or a year in advanced!). Okay, last one: in an interview once she said how if she’s in a bad mood she won’t go somewhere that she could run into fans. She said she always loves to meet and take pics with fans but somedays she just doesn’t feel up to it. She doesn’t want someone who could have been waiting to meet her for a long time miss their chance or think she doesn’t care for them because she was in a bad mood. So she literally hides when she’s in a bad mood so that she doesn’t offend anyone. NOW, she’s taking that hiding to a whole new level. But I can respect it, her hiding makes her career more successful because people are itching for more AND she gets to have her own personal life outside of the spotlight. Plus, if she doesn’t hide there are irrelevant people who walk the walk and talk the talk of celebrities but have no actual talent —— who attack her. So if my girl needs to stay hidden to have happiness, I want her to have that.

I keep thinking of things to add in here but I think they will all eventually come out with the song posts. <3